Current mood:

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memory
bad memory is an enemy. nothing is ever lost, just our memory is dysfunctional at the moment we are trying to utilize it. if anyone's tried the ginkoba stuff, let me know if that stuff really works.

i lost my hw. i need it to study for a test. i could do without it, but the endless staring at the wall part will intervene for a good hour or so as i try to comprehend the problem. i'm not sure why i find the wall so fascinating. it must be because of its simplicity, or maybe something deeper than that.... nope. the only thing deep is the big non existent crack that should be right in the center of the wall.

i think i'm just an easily amused person. i remember the days when i used to have the moving screensavers, you know, the one with all the colorful lines moving around... yeah, those would capture my attention for a good 10 minutes. i couldn't resist following the lines around and making sure that i didn't lose track of the specific line i was tracking. so that killed a lot of my time, and i had to remove the screensaver. i had to join a screensaver anonymous club first and admit i had a problem.

just kidding. they wouldn't accept me.

no, i think i've just been staring at my book for way to long. i did pretty good studying all day. now here i am, almost done with the laboring, and what happens? i slow down to about the speed of a sloth for no good reason. i could just so easily finish off what i'm doing, and go to bed. it's just that simple, the concept isn't too hard to grasp. so why must i continue to procrastinate? why do i keep typing these words and stare at the computer mindlessly as i do so?

i really don't know. some things just aren't meant to have answers. unfortunately, problem 18 of chapter 7 does and i must find it before the test tomorrow.